Finding Us

Sometimes,
In a moment of silence
I regret that I might have grown up too crazed too much
I regret that my eyes have a glazed look saying we can’t touch
I regret that I’ve sent out measured words that lacked in deeds
And having put you in a treasure box just to find with easy leads
Instead of putting piece to puzzle in the big picture
I muzzled real thoughts that never really can reach her
Or so I thought
So I became just a loud mouth preacher
Preaching in this two person church but I am just a projector
Projecting my thoughts onto her, never really knowing how to care
Or how to share and that left you in tears
And me with a bottle of jack on a seaside
Without you by my side watching a sunset
Without you by my side
I watched the  sun punched out as the sky grew darker
All hunched and burnt out like a 9 to 9 worker
All worn out, falling to sleep in the distant horizon
So I sat, lit a cigarette and pondered my position
And I remembered what you’ve always said 
That beauty is in the eye of the beholder
And right now my emotions these tired eyes can’t shoulder
So I parked my thoughts on those waves breaking on boulders
I grew a little bit higher with each new wave break  
calling on the sun to break a brand new dawn 
and I came back down to the ground at first light with a new sight
Of glorious sunrise
I realized
That she’s alive
And that her minds a beehive
despite her lack of words
And that she is life
Despite our deadly attraction
And her lack of rash action
was our only salvation
But now I know 
I know that what she really wanted
was just a moment of silence
No noise
Not advice 
from
Magazines, tv shows or relationship books 
Just a knowing look,
saying I do care.
Even if I am not here 
that I am there.
Just a simple 
word or two
and
I will be latching on to that rhyme too, 
That heart aching, love making 
rhyme
That
is
you